andrew and esther *
Friday, February 24, 2006 <3 i want your smile (:
i just don't what school at SAJC will be like without Andrew. i's practically stuck onto him lahs. =x We meet at every possible break we have together, go to school and home together every school day, band together. yeahh. i feel so lost and lonely without him. Maybe i should try to be more sociable and stop being so dependant on Andrew. =x hahas.
Yahs, but anyway this week has just been as great! and yea dear, you did make my life so much more colourful! =)) thanks for everything, really. oh oh, and that chain [the key to your heart thingy, lols] you bought for me is reallyreally NICE! thank you, Andrew!! And now, you end up broke for the rest of the month, silly. you shouldn't have. now, i have to support you already. hahas`=p
hope you like the "The Body Shop" almond nail and cuticle balm i bought for you, which sort of made me broke too. haha. i love those kind of stuff, but never could bear to splurge so much on myself; only for you! Most importantly, hope it makes your cuticles better, so that they won't bleed again! =x
lols. this reminds me, we both skipped lunch yesterday cause we were both broke! it's so funny. we both made each other broke. which also reminds me, my handphone bill for this month was apalling; shocking and unbelievably high. $9o! not my record, but it was pretty shocking still. could have bought the nike bag i want and more with that money lahs! stupid mee. i want a change of subscription plans! =( *sobs* -looking on stupefied as my money happily flies away into the hands of Singtel-
ANYWAY, thanks so much dear for bothering so much about me- the amkss alumni band, and the borrowing of the bari.sax . yeaa, i know you have my interests at heart, so how can i ever blame or hate you lehs? don't ever say that again yah? btw, sorry if i'm always sooo fickle minded, or have no mind of my own. or if i don't ever get what you are driving at sometimes, or not sensitive enough. =( must always tell me, keas. well, like i said, there are still plenty of much more eligible "candidates" out there for you..
oh yar. saturday band practices are the same for me too. Good partly because i can finally go for church on friday nights, and still see Andrew on Saturday [dreadful weekends]! But having to wake up early on the only day i can sleep late is pretty terrible business too. i will officially have no days to laze in bed anymore from 4thMarch. boooo...=x oh, budden, we'll be able to have lunch together. hmms..you know what? i think we shouldn't just keep sticking to each other. Maybe we can eat out as a section or something? hahaa...occasionally lah. hehs. just a suggestion, i suddenly thought of. yarps, it would be nice to socialize around with bandmembers. =D
ahh! Did i see "study sessions"? Andrew's going to force me to study? bleaaahhss. that's all i can say. =x hehs. okays lars. yea lars. just for Andrew, lazy pig Esther will study! ooh yeah! must do some big planning to get those As! (lalalahs` in my dreams!) but yeah, we'll be focussed and disciplined people yah? just do our best, that would be more than enough.=) hehehs. "A"level chinese results will be released on Wednesday wor! so exciting. all the best dear! go get that distinction! ;p
hahas` today's sectionals was just totally slack and hilarious! hmm..shall choose not to comment on what exactly happened to protect the reputation of the people involved. HAHs. Andrew...your section ah..=x anyway got lots to work on for my playing. waahs` jiayou to mee..
hmm.andrew.. don't always get so pissed off by your parents okay? will ya promise me that? it does no one any good to get upset. you've always got to look at the reason behind things, and even if they're unreasonable, they are still your parents. yah?
the Bible says : 1 Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. 2 "Honor your father and mother" - which is the first commandment with a promise- 3 "so that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on the earth. -Ephesians 6:1-3-
you might not understand why they do things. But it's because they love you and are concerned about you and ultimately, they do what they think is good for you. Or maybe you don't agree with what they do, but seeing that they are your parents, you've got to respect them. I understand sometimes it's still difficult not to get all angry with them.
* 1 A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.-Proverbs15:1-*
But try to look on the brighter side of things. At least you've still got parents to nag at you still, to guide you along. parents who still care about you. parents who are proud to say that you are thier child. at least you've got parents! =) try to reason with yourself and calm yourself down instead of getting so hot-headed, yea? that'll do good to yourself too, you noee.
*13 A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit.-Proverbs15:13-*
whatever's worrying you, you can turn your worries to the Lord. He would be more than glad to share them with you! God is an Almighty, for He is God. Nothing is impossible for Him, as long as you have faith and believe! Not only will he carry your burdens, but also solve them for you through your constant prayer!
* 25 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?......33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.-Matthew6- *
ahh, i know i'm so long winded and all. And you might not agree with me, but i just don't want to keep seeing you getting into a bad mood because of this. smile dear! =D
<3
esther ;
neveralone ;11:48 PM
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ahhh it has yet been another eventful week... thought more than i usually do during this whole week. probably cos i've gort quite alot of time alone... n well, i think about a great deal whenever i'm alone. gort quite fed up wif myself on yesterday and gort esther rather worried. oh then i went to develop one of our photos to put in our wallets. =) i think it looks sooo nice! haha.
hmmm block test coming soon =( which means gotta start mugging at full steam alr. esther gotta start mugging too!!! it's fer ur own good darls! think we shud go study together, then i can like force her to sit down n study fer like a few hours, solid. haha.
topic fer e week is "getting esther to drop alumni". not tt i'm being e bad guy wanting to stop her, but i noe she can't cope (she noes it, her mom noes it too). cos like band is gonna be on sat again soon, she's juz gonna get so weary la, can't even get rest on weekends after a long week of studying. n i hadta be e bad guy todae again by asking her not to borrow e baritone sax under her name fer her alumni. well it's not tt i dun wanna let her do it, i mean, it's juz unnecessary trouble (i've been thru it, i noe) even wif e pple u can trust. haha under such circumstances i'd rather be e devil's advocate now than to let trouble befall her in future. hope u understand darls =)
well it's e weekends again, e last sat w/o band prac... which is good n bad. good in e sense tt i can spend more time (indirectly) wif esther, n bad cos i gotta wake up early (wat agony haha). well tt more or less wraps up this week (besides tonnes of homework). juz another short message to esther: thanx so much darls fer making school life so much more colourful, hope tt i'm able to add colour to ur life as much as u add to mine =) love u so much darls.
<3 andrew
neveralone ;9:13 PM
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Sunday, February 19, 2006 <3
ooOHS! so sorry for my long period of absence!
thanks to dear for keeping this blog alive! ;)
okays. About Vday..yups. It was simple as Andrew has said.
But, it was great just to be able to spend time together (since we hardly get to spend any quality time with each other) . =s
hahas. hmm...tried making brownies all on my own for Andrew! turned out pretty horrendous! i didn't even plan to give it to Andrew, but i did in the end. told him to eat them it at his own risk! lols.
AND andrew! you forgot to mention about the card i made you. =p i did that from scratch too you know, from my heart to you.. hehs. =)) anyway, yeah that's what i tried to do for our first month anniversary. i know it wasn't anything much, but i hope that made andrew happy all the same? =D
well i wanna thank andrew for treating me to lunch and 'shiok" ice-cream at Island Creamery that day although he was going broke. i just really appreciate every moment spent with dear. arghhs. really veryvery sorry that i left him alone for the rest of the evening to go for an OG outing instead! how stupid can i get lars. i so regretted that decision! boohs...ended up talking on the phone, complaining how bored each of us were and wishing we could be having dinner together instead. =x but all in all, i still enjoyed the day. happy vday and first month dear!! manymanymanymany more to comeeeeee!! =DD
oh yah, and about getting organised. hmmm...you know i'm quite the lazy sort. BUT for dear, i'm going to try to change, yea? if not we'll never get the chance to go out with my mum always disapproving. =x miss miss misss you lots! (i dont why i typed that all of a sudden.) well anyway, thanks andrew for coming to pick me up from school yesterday, although it was a long journey from your house. although we could only spend awhile with one another, it really made my day. =)) thanks once again dear, for EVERYTHING.
LOVE YOU, MISS YOU, TOU always!! *muacks*
<3
esther.
neveralone ;10:20 PM
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Saturday, February 18, 2006 <3 getting more organised!!!
haha esther was juz telling me how her mom "bombarded" her continuously to get her life more well-managed and more well organised. hmmm think i'll go get her a nice organiser from kinokuniya or muji. tt's juz to get her started anw, e rest is up to her haha. i think my own planner helped mi alot (when i actualli utilise it). made mi see further, get things done. well esther shud do e same i guess. study hard darling!!! start now or never!! haha.
now tt our relationship is so much more stable wif many things alr working out, i hope both of us can set our priorities right. studies r definitely more impt. 1stly for our own benefit n future, n 2ndly also to show our parents tt we can balance our lives well even tho we're in a relationship. i believe results r about e onli thing that we can use to reassure our parents wif. well i hope we can encourage n motivate each other on e way to work hard. a journey wif a partner is never as tedious n lonely =)
yep, juz thot i could blog b4 gg to meet up wif dan n e rest to watch soccer. ok gtg, love u loads darling! (n anw i finished e brownie u made!!)
<3 andrew
neveralone ;7:00 PM
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006 <3 happy valentine's day cum 1st month!
ahh wanted to cook fer esther todae, but due to some unforeseen circumstances, this special event was reduced to jus a simple date. but somehow we enjoyed ourselves jus as well. walked ard many places n brought her to romankan yokohama to hav katsu, n then island creamery. sounds wayee too simple eh?? realli realli touched by esther... she spent e whole of last nite trying to bake brownies fer mi. though it turned out rather bad (come on, it's her 1st time), i can realli sense the love and effort put into that heart-shaped brownie. thanx darls, i noe u're putting in lotsa effort. dun be sad tt it's not too good. come on, such things take experience. rmb wat i told u? food r friends =) n i realli love that brownie ya?? ahhh i realli can't express my gratitude to u with mere words. thanx darls, happy valentines' day n a happy 1st month, many more to come =)
<3
andrew
neveralone ;10:09 PM
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Sunday, February 12, 2006 <3 the worst is over
ahh! wasn't in the best of moods these past few days.
snapping at any of my family members who talks to me.
just have this niggling pain in the head that never seem to go away, only getting worse.
i think it's due to the strong antibiotics that i was given to treat my throat.
But thank you dear for always being there to make everything better.
For assuring me, and making me smile again.
ohh yes, Praise The Lord!
the "O" level results are out, and i got 12 points!
i know it isn't that impressive, but at least i can stay in SAJC!
was actually preparing myself for the worse. =x
once again, thanks to andrew for being there to allay my fears.
wish i could have done him proud with better results..
well, i promise i will study hard and get those As! =D
neveralone ;6:36 PM
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decided to post an entry cos apparently my godpa n i were having this random conversation on e car juz now which set me thinking. it all sparked off with him buying cigarettes and comparing prices, then my usual nagging at him to stop smoking, but this time i was juz telling him straight tt it is best not to smoke, so u dun spend at all. then we digressed to not having children n a family and therefore no stress...
well then he simply said, "no children no family's the best, then i can be a millionare." (i do not doubt his abilities at all to become one at all for he's quite close to being one alr) n the difference about it this time (he made this statement numerous times, or somewhere close) was that i rebutted subconciously by saying, "wat's the use when u hav no love in ur life, no one to share wif?" those words came outta my mouth even b4 i could stop to rethink wat i was about to say. the next few moments were juz greeted by silence b4 godpa said, "ya... that's true..."
e shocking thing bout this incident was my sudden and yet subtle rebuttal which shocked even myself. i wouldn't hav done tt in e past. seriously. i think my mindset n emotions hav taken a huge turning pt upon getting into a relationship. somehow the more compassionate and sentimental side of me has begun to surface, n it's more evident this time; if given a choice whether i wanna be a billionare living in solitude or a simple man wif a family, i will choose the latter. but if it was mi 2 months back, i would've chosen the former. how fast things change huh.
i'm quite glad actualli, cos it's not tt i've lost the drive to pursue greater heights in life, it's juz tt i've learnt to be more contented wif wat i haf. thanx esther. =)
neveralone ;12:33 AM
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Saturday, February 11, 2006 <3 juz me and you
hmmm valentines' day cum one-month's coming... i've supposedly planned everything out... ahhh guess esther's getting excited too??? realli wanna make this special and unforgettable fer her... but 1st 1st 1st, esther, u muz get well!!! or else u can't enjoy the valentines' day prog i've lined up (not much of a prog actually) juz fer u... well i dunno wat else to say, besides "i love u darls" =)
neveralone ;2:05 PM
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Thursday, February 09, 2006 <3
sighs .
i'm just the luckiest gal ever.
what else can i say?
having andrew in my life has just been the most wonderful thing that has happened to me!
had to make the painful decision of missing school today.
down with fever and a veryvery bad throat
aarghs.
first thought of andrew when i woke up this morning, like i do every morning x)
felt really bad to leave andrew alone today
but my energy was totally zapped
spent my whole day drifting in and out of sleep
wanted to call andrew, but as the saying goes: the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak
missed his voice, missed his presence
andrew even wanted to come and visit, but upon my insistence, he relented.
though, i would have very much liked to see him.
i just think that i'm QUITE lucky =p
to have andrew
thank you for all your concern and care;
for loving me.
sorry for making you worry not only for today, but for many other times too..
thank you for being my greatest pillar of support
i just hope i can love you more
to do many other things for you
for all the things you have done for me
hmm, 'O' level results are out tomorrow
i still can't believe it!!
but anyway, nothing can change that fact, nothing can change my results.
so i guess we should just hope for the best.
pray for God's wisdom to make the right decision.
and come what may, we'll still pull through it, together. =D
can't wait to be back at school tomorrow!
* esther <3 andrew .
neveralone ;9:38 PM
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ahhh esther is sick, down wif high fever. =( my goodness, wat could be worse?? well todae's a dae on my own (so called), went to school alone, went home alone, spend my 3 hr-long break all alone. frankly it's realli quite different without her now tt i've grown accustomed to her company. hmmm may God bless her, let her recover real soon. really hurts mi to see her ill. i guess she's been under lotsa stress - her parents, band, and most imptly, e release of her 'O' level results, which will take place tmr. realli hope she can do well, good enuff to stay in sajc at least, tt will be the best(est) gift to mi, to her n to us. but oh wells, wadeva is the outcome, we all noe it's e best tt God has planned fer her. poor esther, must have been hard on her... let's jus hope she gets well soon.
neveralone ;7:15 PM
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Tuesday, February 07, 2006 <3 first post!!!! =)
hmmm so finally we've got this blog set up, though the skin is not done yet. well it's been almost one month?? yep and that's us above!! =) though it's been only a month or so, much has happened, good and bad alike, but thank God tt even the worst so far has not only failed to tear us apart, but on the contrary, brought us even closer. well the journey ahead's not gonna be easy but i'm quite sure we can tide thru it together as one =)
well last of all i wanna express once again, how much i love her (ok this might sound a bit too mushy, but well it's necessary) n thanx fer everything she has done fer me, and fer us. thanx darls...
<3
andrew
neveralone ;9:54 PM
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testing..
neveralone ;9:35 PM
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